What An Aweful Day! The Key Point - We Are Not Closely Connected

It's actually not that painful, but i just felt it like. After i came back home from supermaket shopping, i began to practice piano. I kept practicing the song from List B since i needed to memorize it by Tuesday. Although i kept on trying so hard, but i still could not play the song smoothly, which drove me crazy. Suddenly a hard feeling floated up to the surface from deep inside of my heart. My tears were about to shed to my cheeks that i went to my room quickly, not to let my mom or my sister see it. I went upstairs and jumped to my bed to cried. What made me feel so horrible was that i was so lazy that i could hardly catch up with the pace of the lessons. I felt so badly that i could not stop sobbing. I regreted so much of how lazy i had been and how much time i had wasted in the past. My fear and anger leashed out immediately. But i told myself i gotta practice hard, i need to get it done. I can not make myself regret once again. So i went back, and set there and practice. I don't know if my mother or my sister had found this out at that moment, but who cares.~

Well, there's one more thing i want to put in this post. While i actived my Friendster's account, i searched for him to see how's he has been doing. Um... i "accidentally" saw the connection part, which said " you are not closely connect to Imran". I set there and started giggling on own. Yes. That's the key point of our "relationship"- We are not closely connected. At that moment i just found out there's nothing more i could do this time because we are just not closely connected. Well, put it in this way, we are not even connected in any methods. Hahaha... Even through i still have some feeings to this guy, but i am pretty sure it's fading away.